Sunshine State

So I've been meaning to post about this sooner but I've been extremely busy and haven't gotten around to it. I went on vacation a couple weeks ago to Florida... It had been way too long since I've been to the beach and I did not want to leave.

This guy, he is so incredibly sweet to me and it was so awesome spending the week with him. He keeps me positive and never fails to make me laugh with his goofiness. I love him. (Sorry Brenden, I had to be mushy for a second).

I can say without a doubt this was the best trip I've ever been on and I am so blessed to have gotten to spend it with such amazing people. 

Good Thoughts.

We only get one life to live. One. In this life we have a billion things to do. Lately I feel like my life moves at lightning speed and I just have to remind myself to slow down. I have to remind myself that its okay to relax for awhile. 

I realized something about myself that kind of frustrates me. I often say I'm going to do something and never do it. Why is that? 

I want to start doing things, not just saying things or hoping for things to happen, I need to make things happen. 

I'm tired of staying in one place. I want to go out of my comfort zone more and explore my calling. I know what you're probably thinking, I have my whole life to do things things. Well, I don't want to waste time. I'm definitely in a season of change right now. If you know me, you probably know I have a hard time with change, like big time. I always tend to think it is going to be a negative thing. I'm learning to embrace it and realize that God is working in every situation. After all, when has God ever not worked things out for me? So, I want to do more things that I am passionate about and more things that I am good at. Not because I'm selfish, I just think of all the possibilities out there if I stop being so shy or nervous and just do. I think not only would I personally be more happy, but I would be able to contribute to the happiness of others. 

So, some things I'd like to do more of:

1. Photography. This is definitely something that makes me happy and I want to get better at. 

2. Take chances. I need to relax and not overthink things. I'm always so hesitant to take chances because I'm scared of the outcome. I need to take chances on people and opportunities and see where God takes me. 

3. Spend time away from technology and enjoy the people I love and embrace the moments that I would otherwise miss out on because of my phone.

So, here's to a spontaneous, unorganized sunday night post. 

Know your worth

So, I've been thinking about this post for awhile and finally decided to just sit down and pour out my thoughts. I'm currently listening to Bethel Live and I can't help but just feel so overwhelmed with love. I know that sounds really cheesy. I'm such a worrier and I tend to be really really hard on myself so its hard sometimes accepting just how much God really loves me. Something has been on my heart for quite awhile. I was watching a video of the "world's ugliest girl" speaking and, wow. That's all I can really say. I mean, she is so inspiring. Her positive attitude towards how rudely people talked about her completely shocked me. I think there's something to be said for her positive attitude. As girls, well as people in general, I think we are so quick to put ourselves down. I mean, really think about it. We are more mean to ourselves than anyone else. One word, one reminder, one mistake completely breaks us. I think the problem is that we rely on others to make us happy and we find out worth in what others say about us. The problem is that we rely on others to make us happy and we find out worth in what others say about us. I struggle with this all the time, believe me. I read that 7 out of 10 young girls believe that they simply aren't good enough. Wow. That's really sad to me. I know that God definitely doesn't want us to feel that way. God gives us worth. He shows us that we really are worthy despite what we think. The verse 139:14 says "I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well." I see this verse all the time and I hope that more girls can read this verse and realize what it really means. We are made by God and we find our worth in Him. So, we shouldn't feel insecure, defeated, unworthy, or ashamed. We should feel loved and joyful knowing that we have infinite worth. We don't find our worth in what others think of us. We find our worth in who God says we are. I think God has been slowly revealing this to me. And I know that I've needed to hear it. I've been relying way too much on the opinions of others to find happiness and worth. And I know now that what I really need is to embrace who God says I am. 

So my prayer tonight is just that anyone who may read this realizes one simple thing: You are of infinite worth.

And remember: